Sunday, November 22, 2009
~ 11:37 am ~
***____CheeZ
Its been a long time since i blogged. really long. but just this once. for him.
he was in the US for a 6 months training. He was due to be back some time next month. yet, he came back earlier than expected, but not in a way anybody would want and would have expected.
I didnt get to know him until sec 3, when we were in the same class. he was the sort who made lessons more interesting, if you know what i mean. He was a great friend.
I still remember, during the SARs period, when i was confined at home, he would always help me get my hwk for me and pass to me. Not forgetting the period near 'O' levels, when i "disappeared" from school. The teachers gave practice papers. He would get an extra copy and pass it to me.
i will never forget the countless times whereby he would come and sit beside me during lessons. even when the teachers ask him to go back to his seat, he would simply say, "i cannot see the whiteboard, i forgot to bring my glasses."
and the times when he teased me. he was one of those who called me "rabbit!". he loved teasing girls. and the times when he would do funny things to make people laugh.
Ah, not forgetting the time whereby we got a free trip to night safari, in courtesy of his dad, who works there, and then getting a ride home after that since i lived so near him. i'm sure many people will not forget that, since its the first time outside of school such a big group went out together.
he was smart, especially good at maths, and if i did not remember wrongly, science. because i remember him teaching me some maths when i did not understand.
we drifted after graduation. he went to JC and i went to poly (haha! i drifted not only from him, but all my sec sch frens). though we did chat occasionally on msn.
he went on to sign on as a regular in the airforce, a step nearer to his dream - becoming a pilot.
and then suddenly, he was gone. gone. just like that.
On Nov 16, 2.10am (SG time), he met with a car accident in the US. 9 hours later, he was gone.
when i received the news that night, i was shocked. speechless. Too sudden. because just the day before, he was still active on facebook.
just last month, we were still wishing each other happy birthday on fb. nobody would have guess that less a month later, he would be taken away.
Even though we have drifted apart, it still hit me quite hard. For the past week, couldn't really concentrate on mugging for my exams. my mind kept drifting to him. something kept drawing me back to his fb page. looked through his photos countless times. he was happy. the tears would come then.
its so heart wrenching to know that, his fb page will be there forever. but it will not be logged in by him anymore. so heart wrenching when you know that you will never see him anymore, nor receiving birthday wishes from him, no more chats.
the number of grieving hearts he left behind are countless. he's the only son. His family, his gf, his friends, he was taken away from so many people.
why, why him of all people. he was young, he was fit, he was on the way to achieving his dreams, he still has yet to go for a degree, yet to start a family and yet he was taken away so early.
i dreamt of him a few nights ago, something i did not tell anybody. i dreamt he came back and said it wasnt him in the car. he wasnt inside when it happened. and all of us scolded him for making us worry. at least it was happy ending inside the dream.
went to his wake yesterday. got to see him for the first and last time in this few years. feel very 遗憾 that could not send him off on tomorrow, since i would be in the middle of exams.
Zhihao (a.k.a Cheeseman), Thank you for being my friend, and goodbye. I will never forget your unique laughter, and the times we shared. You will always live on in our memories, loved by all, missed by all. Hope you are somewhere happy now.
my deepest condolences to his family and gf, and everybody who knows him.
am glad that at the very least, he lived his dream.
can you feel the love and all the misses from us?
